Monday, October 24, 2022

 

Diwali-Time for celebrations!!

A festival that has always lit up innumerable lamps of joy and happiness for me whatever be my state of mind, and continues to stay close to my heart.  It cannot be otherwise, especially if you have been raised in a city like Mumbai.  I remember the excitement on the days running up to Diwali, it would be distinctly palpable - Starting off with the vacations at school/college, the franctic house cleaning and dusting, followed by shopping for home decorations, rushing to the countless sales kiosks, new clothes, the aroma of sweets and savouries being dished out in our kitchen both by Mom and Dad, the colourful “rangolis” spread out at the entry of our little apartments, and of course all kinds of crackers.  Happy, beaming faces all around me. The night scenes mesmerized me.  Balconies would be adorned with all types of fancy lanterns, little twinkling earthern oil lamps, illuminations of all colours and types.  Homes would be crowded with visiting friends and families, all in their Diwali glittering best, air filled with the sounds of boisterous laughter, the intermittent sounds of fireworks and the sound of tinkling bells during the evening prayers for our Gods and Goddesses, the intoxicating fragrance of incense sticks.  I think I can go on and on.  Suffice it to say, that I always felt transported to some fairy land every Diwali.  Ah yes, how can I forget all those extra inches that I would gain post the celebrations.  Its an emotional roller coaster every Diwali season - This time too memories re-visit me with sharp flashbacks.  Some so etched in the pages of my mind.  Some gains, some losses.  Dad would lead from the front when it came to bursting crackers; I see the same enthusiasm in his eyes even today come Diwali, but I also see the way he accepts the reality that age brings with it and stays content in the background as he watches the goings on. Mom, those days would go berserk over interior decorations and new clothes while we children hogged and hogged, and were all hyperactive and literally unmanageable.  Yes, with so much time gone by, things have changed, some for the better, and some to accommodate the modern lifestyles.  Happy and grateful for all those cherished moments.  Today, fleeting moments do flash by wherein I feel my eyes go moist, when my throat swells up, when deep in the corner of my heart I yearn for the proximity and presence of those loved ones of mine who left me too, too early....Festivals now are never the same, but the earnest desire to keep the spirits and the festivities high, just as they would have wanted us to, keeps me going...So here’s to Diwali 2022, lets make memories...Happy Diwali


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Wednesday, September 28, 2022


Food For Thought....

Back to work after a forced short break due to my dear laptop giving up on me!!!...Yes, I actually lost a few mandays with work piling up and some really disquieting, harrowing moments spent attempting to get my system back up and functioning.  I was all jittery and irritated.  Whilst, there was also another part of me that actually considered this forced break a blessing in disguise, in that, all of a sudden, I found myself with a lot of "free" time and also that which would allow me ( I assumed) to do all what I always yearned to do to my heart's content, and that was read, read, read, or may be just laze around, catch up with my friends, visit the local temples, ramp up my exercise routines, try out those numerous beauty hacks that I watch on the gram's reels and so on and so forth; however, this particular comment from my colleague, and to present it in her exact words "faltu ka leave" typical Mumbaiya slang and would roughly translate to, "waste of hard-earned leaves" turned out to be some food for thought for me.  She was of course all of empathy and all, but still, it got me thinking, albeit on a different tangent...The newspapers were carrying some very heart-wrenching stories-that of a death of an Iranian-Kurdish woman whilst in detention, alleged reason for her detention being she was wearing the "Hijab" in an "improper" way. Precious life lost!  It was disturbing news, and then I was like, here we are, feeling justified in fretting and fuming for this little "mishap" if I may call it for having lost out on  a few earned leaves of mine, and out there, the world witnesses misfortunes of the unimaginable kind!!! Unquestionably, the two scenarios are absolutely uncomparable, but as always, my mind always has a queer trajectory. Perhaps, it was my way of teaching myself that life is hard, but a zillion times more hard and strenuous for millions and millions of people.  It is next to impossible for me to even fathom how the family and friends of the one who lost her life will ever come to terms and cope with such a colossal tragedy!!!.  Sadly, these days, such stories are a dime a dozen. I fail to understand why we cannot just live and let live?.  

And then I ask myself was my loss a loss at all?


#facingchallenges #lookatthepositives #staycalm #laughitaway #largerschemeofthings


Saturday, March 20, 2021

Sunday, May 24, 2020

DISCONTENT


DISCONTENT


Oh Discontent! How you fill us all!
Your presence leading to our ultimate fall
Crawling and picking you enter
With cell, tissue, organ you tamper
Corroding every wall of our interiors
You watch our ruin with pleasure.

Oh Discontent! You roots so firm and strong
With intentions what were you born?
To kill our virtues painfully cultivated
Or to incur the wrath of this our land?
Emerge from your consolidated shell
Break out from the depth of our cells.

Oh Discontent! Man that opened the Pandora’s box
Has Life’s cup brimming with agonies lots
Do not hurdle his path now, leave him alone
And depart to your own mysterious home
Let him rise and touch the zenith of satisfaction
And savour the taste of sweet sweet content.

Saturday, May 23, 2020

A SANDY GRAVE





In the distant lonely land
Where man nor beast can ever stand
The biting heat, the chilling breeze
Wanders a solitary soldier lean

A wounded body he drags along
In pain to God he calls aloud
Sands of his life are running out
As trails of blood he leaves about

A parched throat and a skin so dry
Blistered feet and a heavy mind
Some rest, comfort or a caressing hand
Are dreamy tales of yet another land.

His dreary shoulders sadly bent
In quest of some inhabited tent
The soldier surges on ahead
Holding his gun in his hand

An ailing mother, old and sad
His heart’s beloved, young and frail
His cosy cottage in the village
Haunting images- not real, all a mirage

The soldier’s feet fails his will
He trips, staggers, his mighty build
Pulled down to the hot bed of sand
His grave he saw now in the desert land

A sandy blanket covers our brave heart
A dry grave decked with scorpions and spiders
Peace and tranquillity now his armour
An unsung hero, a memory forever…



उलझन

                    

उलझन 

धागे ज़िन्दगी के 
कुछ ऐसे बिखर गए 
गाँठ पड़े किसी में 
तोह  कुछ टूट भी गए 
पर कुछ ऐसे उलझ गए 
के घायल  मन्न  यह सोचे 
और सोचकर भी न मिले 
जवाब उस सवाल के 
कि ज़िन्दगी हम पर बोज है 
या हम ज़िन्दगी पर हैं...... 

                      ...प्रिया 
                

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Ode to our Chippi

The curtain fell on his act, he departed, his job done.
Not waiting for the applause nor for the standing ovation.
A wobbly speck of white he was into our world that had bounced in
A companion, sibling, pet, a friend, all roles played to perfection.

Still he lay on my lap now, unlike ere, not a twitch,
Not even an eye opening, the tail not wagging, his body limp.
Respite our "Chippi" had alas found from all torture and all pain
The cancer that he could not tame, claimed him and snatched him away.

His darling mango tree now shields him, he sleeps there with all his belongings;
The water mug, his paper ball, his leash, the hair brush and even my wrist band.
Perchance watching us in peace, we had let him go, bade him goodbye,
But memories! they refuse to be kind, haunt me with clock-like regularity.

I see him prancing all over our courtyard with ears pricking
Head cocking, tilting to and fro, wiggling to wedge in closer to us, flaring,
Pressing his pink nose on every inch of ground, zig-zagging,
Leaving pawprints of his love for us, perhaps to comfort us when he is no more.

I see him sharing our beds, our moments of celebration and gloom,
Lifting us from the abyss of despair,
Licking away our tears, exuberant in our joy,
Pleading for just a pat or a big hug from us, his dearest ones.

Now the little fuzzy white ball that we'd cuddled
In spite of the sometimes stinky doghide
Will never jump out from the midst of fallen damp leaves
Or glide through mud and slug-infested gardens in lightning speed

Silent, sick and in agony he had lain
His shiny eyes reflecting gratitude
For our proximity, our care and attention.
Did'nt' we but owe it to him
To be worthy of such devotion
To be loved so unconditionally
To be revered like the Gods?

Thursday, July 22, 2010

A weak moment.....

Providence knocked on my neighbor's door
My patience received another deadly blow;
A trickle, a stream, a river, then a flood
My tears came rushing, but seen by none.

Walls of my cage encroached upon me
The little lamp flickered and wavered beside me;
Shadows long and eerie performed before me
A dance so macabre, horror gripped me.

The light fell dead and darkness was born
My senses numb with the ray of hope gone.
"O merciful Lord, who guards us all
Am I not the one fit to be called?

Sunday, June 6, 2010

BLUNDER NO# INFINITY……

I do not really recall the occasion, but here was my oh-so-religious mom pulling me up from my dreamy slumber, admonishing me for not keeping my word to visit the local temple in the wee hours of the morning. In order to escape the nonstop nagging from my mom, I scrambled out of bed, rushed to the restroom for a hurried bath, changed in to dry- cleaned clothes, and was very soon on my way to the temple, which was situated at a distance of about 10 km from my residence. Keeping with my new-found preference for austerity (courtesy our union finance minister), I decided to avail the services of the state transport bus to reach my destination.

The bus stop almost presented a scene from a battleground. It was a week day, and the bus stand was swarming with school children loaded with the much-debated rucksacks on their backs, and then of course, the rest of the paraphernalia of umbrellas, raincoats, lunch bags etc.; then there were the college students, the regular office goers, and last but not the least, the vegetable vendors and fisher women with their baskets, all of their necks straining toward the direction in which they anticipated the eagerly-awaited bus to come. To add to all this, was the constant honking of the vehicles passing by splashing dirty water collected in puddles and pot holes from the bout of the heavy downpour that had just stopped. It was now just drizzling, but enough damage to have all buses run annoyingly late had already been done. Wrist watches played mischief by attracting the attention of their owners every other minute. Tempers were slowly beginning to rise.

The crowd grew in size in the twinkling of an eye, and the prospect of me getting into an approaching bus seemed to be more than a Herculean task. Nevertheless, I stood my ground, reminding myself of my resolve for austere measures. "When the going gets tough, the tough get going", kept ringing in my ears, and decided that my mode of transport to the temple will not change, and would be the local bus itself.

Someone from the crowd spotted the bus afar, and alerted one and all. For a flash of a second, I was sure that we were in “Kurukshetra” or the battleground, and we were the army of the Pandavas waiting for our commander to yell out an "AKRAMANN" meaning ATTACK," the enemy being the innocent red bus approaching us. The next few moments witnessed a scurry of activity, people shutting their umbrellas,(some of the umbrellas stubbornly refusing to obey their masters) the vendors hurrying to adjust their baskets on their heads, each and every one jostling and rushing to place themselves in vantage positions to not only enter the bus, but to also grab a seat depending on their respective expertise, an ideal example of the theory of the origin of species, i.e. survival of the fittest!!!!

Interestingly, I for one, did not need to do much, thanks to my small size, I guess. Amidst all the commotion, I found myself pushed and pulled, some falling child even grabbed my hair, I suppose, but there was no time to retaliate or to even feel the pain, as in a jiffy, I was lifted into the bus by unknown hands and bodies, and for a few breathtaking moments, even held suspended in mid air ....I thought the wait would never end…when THUD…All of s sudden, I crash-landed violently, but miraculously on a seat, wherein by the time I could gather my wits, I found myself being loaded with heavy sack like school bags one after another, the kids not even bothering to politely request me to hold it for them while they struggled to maintain at least a decent standing position. Good manners? Save it for some other time lady, was the look they gave me.. A minute later I found myself to be the custodian of God alone knows how many bags, wet and dripping umbrellas, raincoats, T-scales of the Engineering college students, so much so the only portion of my body visible to the outside world were my pair of eyes, which begged and pleaded to those closing in on me to have pity on the human life underneath this huge pile. The chaos and commotion continued. People were screaming and shouting at each other. The bus conductor looked like he had just come out of World War II with all his hair standing out in all 4 directions. He seemed genuinely thankful that he still had his clothes on his torso. The drizzle did little to cool tempers, which refused to stop rising.

Someone accidentally hit the bell, and fortunately for me the driver took it as a cue from the conductor to resume the journey. Phew!!!...so we were finally moving. I told myself another 15 minutes and I would probably be out of danger from death out of suffocation. The roads were all slippery due to the rains, and it was traffic jams galore. The bus moved at a snail's pace, brakes were pressed after every 5 minutes, and I was now beginning to shiver under this pile of wet umbrellas and raincoats. My head kept banging against the seat every time the brakes were pulled and my poor little nose, I could give the Japanese some real tough competition!!! But I desperately tried to think positive ..,I consoled myself, may be I would be in a position to match Himesh Reshammiya with my nasal droony voice.and yeah…do a duet with him!!!!WOW…how wild can imaginations fly….well, blame it on the circumstances 

Anyways, the junction adjacent to the school was approaching, so I gathered from the banter of the children. Thanked God for gifting us with ‘ears” to hear, my eyes were denied its ability to actually function even though they were wide open. Anyways, I knew relief was not very far. Almost three-fourths of the crowd comprised of school children, all of them now in readiness to alight at the next stop. As the bus screeched to a halt, there was another scramble….this time, to unload the stuff on me….Some grabbed the bags, the others their umbrellas, the T-scales, some of which got entangled…and then the struggle to disentangle them. When the last item on my lap was finally retrieved and most of the crowd had gotten off, I straightened myself and readjusted my hair, which resembled that of a ruffled bird's nest, and began to make myself comfortable. Yes I also smacked my nose back to position, hmm, the damage was not irreversible. It was then that I noticed one more umbrella on my lap. Some little child had forgotten her/his umbrella….it was raining…the bus had begun to move…I looked out of the window and saw this puny school girl in uniform looking up at me…Without any hesitation, and with the confidence of a seasoned cricketer, I lifted the umbrella and threw it out of the window to the little girl, all in lightning speed.…..I am sure even Jonty Rhodes could not have made such a precise throw ever in his cricketing career ….the bus had by now picked up speed and was well on its way….the last I saw of that girl was her running to pick the umbrella with this very confused look in her face oscillating between me and the umbrella. I sat back once again in my seat so content with the world….This was my good deed for the day….I had returned an umbrella to a child who otherwise would have been punished by parents at home for losing it, or by the school authorities for coming in soaking wet. I was so pleased and proud of myself…Poor girl…she would have been so miserable, but for me…I had something good to jot down in my diary tonight.

As the bus meandered its way through the busy road once again, an uncomfortable feeling of something amiss crept into me….Am I missing the crowd or the sweet heaviness of all those stuff on me?. Or am I just euphoric because of the good deed accomplished?. The place where I needed to alight was nearing, there was no time to ruminate, and now it was my turn to prepare myself to alight, but there definitely was something missing…I had my purse in hand….but there was an additional item in my hand I remembered vividly while leaving home.….Yes…it flashed back…mom had hurriedly pushed an umbrella into my hand while leaving… It was missing now…..I frantically looked for it, around me, behind my seat, in front of my seat, underneath my seat, went down in all fours....but could not find it…..GOSH!!!!!Realization only then dawned on me.... I HAD THROWN OFF MY OWN UMBRELLA TO THE LITTLE GIRL IN ALL THE COMMOTION ….and that explained the confused look in the child's face and who had no way to reach out to me as the bus had already moved away….

My co-passengers very kindly enquired as to what I was looking for….Surely, I could not explain that I had foolishly thrown off my own umbrella out of the window!!!... I could not afford to present myself as such a dumb nitwit, could I?…So I just sheepishly smiled, shrugged my shoulders and mumbled "Oh, I am alright, just checking whether I have all my belongings intact". The bus stopped near the temple and I got off it minus umbrella plus anxiety as to what explanation I was to give my mom….The first thing I asked God when I entered the temple was " Oh Lord, why me????

Dedicated to my very dear friends, Sowmini, Deepa, Molly, Reena,Sankar, Manish ,:)

Friday, May 14, 2010

A PLEA...




When I am gone and no more
My voice unheard, my image a vision
Whence all that I 'd' have left behind
Would be objects that have no life
Let those then that bring memories
Back, be strewn deep, deep
Into the valley of darkness
Not touched by daylight nor
by shining stars; Away from
Civilization; lest remembrances stir
Kind souls of a life worthless
At times burdensome, and at others
Pain inflicting, let not a tear
Be shed for a serviceless life.
A relieving thought it 'd' be then
That If cheer in life
I did not spread, sorrow
I brought to none in death.

  Diwali-Time for celebrations!! A festival that has always lit up innumerable lamps of joy and happiness for me whatever be my state of m...